Today, I thought I'd have gotten all of my head on straight. With one needle and a lot of booze, surely I'd have found all of the answers.
I have not had the adrenaline rush I've craved for 10 months. Ink or piercing. One of these must serve as a fix.
For the fourth day of October, the 14 gauge needle was to be my savior. I hope Raul gets some promotion from my choice.
My sisters were scared about my actions, and that's before they knew I wanted the kanji tat of "To die young", and showering unbeknown to a "boil order". I should have realized with every rush there is a crash.
I made my best efforts with a new girl at Al's. She was beyond totally cool. Hopefully my company didn't cost her too much. Again I receive the, "Hang in there, it will all work out," as she told me I was so much like her current boyfriend.
Oh for the age of chivalry. Kick the dude's ass and the "girl is mine."
This is what I got from a good friend Monday. This is what I've been getting from my best friends for 3 years.
That or, you gotta be an asshole.
I went and gave my all today, but no matter the needs I fulfill, I am still left craving more.
I just want to find someone who will give back as much as I put out, and after seeing all those I work harder than get that, I can't stand to put out my best without reward.
I do have to apologize to the girl tonight. For not knowing me at all, you gave a shit. You gave all you could to help me feel good. Thanks.
I just wish I could always count on that at the end of each day.
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